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And I danced myself literally to my 21th birthday~ It was memorable to say the least. Danced to 'Bitch' by Meredith Brooke. Awesome song. Awesome beat. I looked like an idiot but at least I had style!
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Why?

1 min read
Just why don't some people understand the concept of 'no'?
If I say no, it won't just suddenly change to a yes because you keep bugging me about it. I mean... just fuck off already! You are only starting to annoy me more and more with your pushing me into things that I just don't want. Don't you have the brain to think? Can't you put yourself into another person's mind and see that person also has feelings?
Apparently you don't because otherwise I wouldn't feel so pissed off at you all the time and I'm not the only one.
Just... no is no. I'm just so very close to regretting that we are friends. Don't keep going over the limit that I show and pretend the world is about you. It isn't.

/end rage

Yes, I had to rage somewhere at the moment. This person is making me sick quite literally. I feel sick in the stomach, get headaches. He is only causing me stress and makes me want to become a complete bitch towards him while this isn't in my nature.
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NCIS personallity test

Abby Sciuto: 2
[x] you have more black clothes than any other color
[ ] you consider your co-workers as family
[ ] you love tattoos, and have more than two
[ ] you absolutely love your job
[ ] you don't judge people by their looks  
[ ] you wouldn't survive without caffeinated energy drinks!
[x] you experience a lot of emotions


Leroy Jethro Gibbs: 3
[x] you would do anything for your family
[x] you've made up rules to live by
[ ] you always trust your gut
[ ] you take your job very seriously
[ ] you build with wood in your spare time
[x] you have lost someone very close to you
[ ] you need a coffee every morning to be in a better state of mind

Ziva David: 5
[ ] you have very good gun or knife skills
[x] you have a more exotic nationality
[x] you have found it hard to admit your love for someone
[x] you can be competitive
[ ] you find idioms confusing
[x] you can be a tease when you want to be
[x] you don't like to show weakness or pain (I do it but I still don't like it)

Tony DiNozzo: 4
[ ] you're considered quite a jokester
[x] you love watching movies
[ ] you can get along with anyone who loves a classic movie
[x] you sometimes say inappropriate things about something serious
[ ] you have a lot of fun being the group leader
[x] you're pretty average with computers
[ ] you tend to joke as a way of expressing how you feel

Timothy McGee: 4
[x] you love playing online RPG's
[ ] you're scared of heights
[x] you love writing
[x] you were bullied when you were younger
[x] you protect your family
[ ] you get pranked often
[ ] you love nutter butters

Ducky Mallard: 7
[x] you love to tell stories about your younger days
[x] you talk to things that can't talk back
[x] you have been a mentor to family member and friends
[x] you have done things in the past that you regret
[x] you enjoy a good cup of tea
[x] you accidentally ramble on quite a lot
[x] you enjoy reading

Kate Todd: 3
[  ] your co-workers are like siblings to you
[ ] you hate sexism
[x] you can 'take one for the team' when times get tough
[ ] you know exactly how to get what you want
[x] you're a dog person
[ ] you're not scared of a challenge
[x] you have a good sense of humor

Jimmy Palmer: 5
[x] you can sometimes be very awkward and clueless
[x] you wear glasses
[x] you buckle under pressure
[x] you're a good listener
[x] you are good at giving advice
[ ] you're not a very good liar
[ ] you study hard

Leon Vance: 1
[ ] you are used to being the boss
[x] you don't always trust the people close to you
[ ] you have a short temper
[ ] you are prone to argue with people
[ ] you have a great memory
[ ] you know a lot of people that do not like you
[ ] you have a nicer side that doesn't show very often

Jenny Shepard: 2
[ ] you are sometimes power-hungry
[ ] you believe that love always comes first
[x] you have a good sense of humor
[ ] you're a strong and determined person
[ ] you're sometimes a force to be reckoned with
[x] you like to have a lot of control
[ ] you're quick to notice something out of place

OMG! I'm Ducky! I'm an old man! T^T
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And I'm once again going as Tezuka Kunimitsu from Prince of Tennis. First I wanted to not go in any cosplay, but then... it is so weird walking around there normally... Probably won't be using my left arm that much (JUST LIKE TEZUKA!) because my hand is dying (unlike Tezuka since his shoulder is dying). It gave me signs that he doesn't want to continue on living with me anymore. In the end I will probably be stubborn and still use my hand at times. So if you happen to be there and you hear someone screaming in pain, that is me! =D
Now I should get something to drink and go to sleep. I will need it a lot DX
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Still alive

6 min read
Yup yup, I'm still alive and I totally found a new quiz I did. Found it a link on another site, pointing to once again another site. It's called SemeUke.com . Since you have to click to get an answer and you won't know how to get which result, I will just put on my result here.~

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You are a Chibi Seme

You are the seme in disguise. Able to fit in and get along with uke and seme alike, you are able to get close to the uke on their level before exerting your dominance. This makes you at times manipulative and able to fool others about your true seme nature. Because of your harmless appearance, it takes the flamboyant Flaming Uke to match wits and really bring out your aggressive side to expose you for the seme that you are.

Most compatible with: Flaming Uke, Badass Uke
Least compatible with: Dramatic Uke


Mischievous, loyal, and intelligent, the Chibi Seme always seems to have a quiet energy whispering around them, suggesting that there is much more to them then what there first appears to be. Laid-back, and not one to call a lot of attention to themselves, they tend to guard their creative, forceful, (and somewhat manipulative) inner self behind an easygoing and playful exterior shell, which makes it impossible for most to truly know them. It takes a special Uke personality to see into the Chibi Seme's deep hidden self and release their sensual side, but once the Chibi Seme has let in that one special person, they will be forever loyal, loving, and protective.

A Chibi Seme will never be completely happy with just the ordinary. Setting themselves somewhat apart from the rest of the world, they need someone like-minded to keep them challenged intellectually and spiritually - a partner to inspire their dark naughty adventures and give them the motivation to take control.

The Chibi Seme personality best (but not always) corresponds with these associations:

Japanese Element: Wind

Chinese Zodiac: Dog

Color: Camouflage

Fruit: Kiwi

Dessert: Cheesecake

Theme Song: MH by Kra

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Yay! I'm a seme! And a chibi at that!
And I'm feeling way too hyper... but I blame Skip Beat for that. I finished watching the anime whichisfartooshortandshouldhavecontinuedonandifIwerelivinginJapanIwouldsogostalktheagencytocontinuetheseries
andialsowatchedthedramawhichisn'tfinishedbutitiskoreanandIdon'tlikethatverymuchbutitisbetterthannothing
and loved it. But the downside from me being into something completely... is that my personality changes. Yes, it changes a bit. It is now making me far to hyper and 'chibi-like'. Wanting to throw random fits when some sort of panicked about something or when I'm turning into 'spoiledchild-mode'

Example: Whaa!! Ren-sama is so awesome! I wanna hug him! Why can't I hug him?! I want to bloody hug him!! He's so cute!   *mentally :icononiontantrumplz:*
Example 2: But what if she will feel bothered by it? I don't want her to feel bothered... that isn't good... But I wanna ask.. I can't I can't! But.... I'm. So. Curious! Noooooooooooooo!!! Don't think about it! Put it in the back of your mind! *mental :iconheadacheplz:*

It is true that I already had such moods in my head, but now it is worse :iconmiseryplz: But it will slowly fade with time. I know it will since it is always like that. Like the time when I read a book where some people died in some people which I totally loved T^T and that was about surviving Kruistocht in spijkerbroek. After reading I became more... I don't know how to explain. Somehow I got the feeling from the me back then that if people died in front of me, I would be able to handle it. I would be able to become a leader kind of person... Okay, not leader person. It would just leave me cold if someone would die in front of me. I felt more emotionless. Imagine having that for at least a few weeks >w>;;
Yeah, I'm getting too much into the characters. Would come in handy if I was an actor, but I'm not. (did play in musicals in the past though. Not professional. Just for fun.)
I'm especially good getting into sad books, which is a reason why I totally shouldn't watch or read sad stories. It can totally make me feel (more) depressed for no reason at all. More than once I suddenly started shedding tears out of nowhere because my feelings have mixed too much in with a story. I'm influenced just a bit too easily.

And if you already have read all of this, I'm really amazed you managed to keep up with all of my ranting!!

Why this journal rant at all? Why not just dump the results and click on the submit button?
That answer is simple...

I'm bored.:icononiontantrumplz:
I'm very very bored and since :icont-sheena: isn't on msn and instead has left me to eat out with her family, I have no one to rant to. Not like I would've really ranted about this all to her probably.... :iconsighingplz:

So that is why I'm ranting in my journal.... Expect more rants in the future! .... And more quiz thingies when I find them again!

:iconmoonstarbeam: over and out~
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